Again. She'd spoken to doc holiday Rebecca, who thought Tom was supposed to doc holiday be doc holiday going to doc holiday Michael's for doc holiday lunch. I called Michael who said Tom had left a weird message talking in an odd distorted voice saying he wasn't going to doc holiday be doc holiday able to doc holiday come and doc holiday hadn't given a reason. 3 p.m. Starting to doc holiday feel really panicky, at doc holiday the same time enjoying sense of doc holiday being at doc holiday center of doc holiday drama. Am practically Tom's best friend so everyone is doc holiday ringing me and doc holiday am adopting calm yet deeply concerned air about whole thing. Suddenly occurs to doc holiday me that maybe he's Just met someone new and doc holiday is doc holiday enjoying honeymoon-style shag hideaway for doc holiday a few days. Maybe it wasn't him Sharon saw, or black eye is doc holiday just product of doc holiday lively enthusiastic young sex or postmodern- style ironic retrospective Rocky Horror Show makeup. Must make more phone calls to doc holiday test new theory. 3:30 p.m. General opinion quashes new theory, since it is doc holiday widely agreed to doc holiday be doc holiday impossible for doc holiday Tom to doc holiday meet new man, let alone start affair, without ringing everyone up to doc holiday show off. Cannot argue with that. Wild thoughts ranging through head. No denying that Tom has been disturbed lately. Start to doc holiday wonder whether am really good friend. We are all so selfish and doc holiday busy in London. Would it be doc holiday doc holiday for doc holiday one of doc holiday my friends to doc holiday be doc holiday so unhappy that they . . . ooh, that's where I put this month's Marie Claire: on top of doc holiday fridge! As flicked through Marie Claire started fantasizing about Tom's funeral and doc holiday what I would wear. Aaargh, have suddenly remembered MP who died in a plastic bag with tubes around neck and doc holiday chocolate orange in mouth or something. Wonder if Tom has been doing weird sexual practices without telling us? 5 p.m. Just called Jude again. 'Do you think we should call the police and doc holiday get them to doc holiday break in?' I said. 'I already rang them,' said Jude. 'What did they say?' I couldn't help feeling secretly annoyed that Jude had rung the police without clearing it with me first. I am Tom's best friend, not Jude. 'They didn't seem very impressed. They said to doc holiday call them if we still couldn't find him by Monday. You can see their point. It does seem a bit alarmist to doc holiday report that a twenty-nine-year-old single man is doc holiday not in on Saturday morning and doc holiday has failed to doc holiday turn up for doc holiday a lunch party he said he wouldn't be doc holiday corning to doc holiday anyway.' 'Something's wrong, though, I just know,' I said in a mysterious, loaded voice, realizing for doc holiday the first time what an intensely instinctive and doc holiday intuitive person I am. 'I know what you mean,' said Jude, portentously. 'I can feel it, too. Something's definitely wrong.' 7 p.m. Extraordinary. After spoke to doc holiday Jude could not face shopping or similar lighthearted things. Thought this might be doc holiday the perfect time to doc holiday do the Feng Shui so went out and doc holiday bought Cosmopolitan. Carefully, using the drawing in Cosmo, I mapped the ba-gua of doc holiday the flat. Had a flash of doc holiday horrified realization. There was a wastepaper basket in my Helpful Friends Corner. No wonder bloody Tom had disappeared. Quickly rang Jude to doc holiday report same. Jude said to doc holiday move the wastepaper basket. 'Where to, though?' I said. 'I'm not putting it in my Relationship or Offspring Corners.' Jude said hang on, she'd go have a look at doc holiday Cosmo. 'How.,
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